cynical

I’m nineteen years old.I’ve got good A/L results and therefore my life is supposed to be full of possibilities. But I’m sorry to say that at the moment I don’t see any possibilities at all.I’m caught in a labyrinth and can’t find the way out.
I blame the “system” for this confusion I feel. It gives you no breathing space, no time to take a break after an exam,to try various things and then decide on what you are passionate about,what you want to do for the rest of your life.The world we live in is far too competitive for such things and “survival of the fittest” (or in this case, the most focused) is the rule we live by.
So you put your whole life and future at stake and move towards one goal.This goal could be your own choice but in most cases it is something that abides by the stereotype norms of society.
If you like the path you chose, good for you. If you love it, even better. If you hate it, too bad, it’s too late to start all over again.
But then again, maybe it’s not the system. Maybe it’s me.To be honest, I’m not brave enough to take one year off and see where it takes me.Part of me wants to break away from the system but the other part seems to be afraid of something. Rejection is the closest I can come to.
Either way, I have a feeling that I’m going to waste the best years of my life if I confine myself to one goal so now I’m concentrating on doing my best to branch out to other fields while I continue my higher studies.For now, I cannot tell how successful it will be but I’m sure I will gain something out of it,even if it is the mere experience.